The bliss of truth

The truth is denied to everyone in this informational world. Beyond the reign of truth lies the truth that there is no truth. You may say this is hypothetical and philosophical. But one must endure life experiences to see this bliss of truth. Why do i say that. A truth may become a lie and a lie becomes a truth in this world of maya. I may sound like a Godmen. But that is not the purpose I am talking for. I am a sojourner in a place called Life. History is replete with examples of great people manipulating the minds of people in establishing the so called truths. The mind as per me has infinite space, time and causation. The mind is much deeper than an ocean. It is how we control it and train it to understand the information it receives and processes that establishes truth in us. Every suffering inflicted upon us is not physical but mental in nature. That is why emotions out pour when someone suffers. Even physical pain we feel is because of nerves connected to the brain which houses mind. So everybody knows mind is different from Brain. Everybody possess brain, the physical part. But mind is a omniscient and unique thing. It is constantly evolving with respective to thoughts. And thoughts can be conditioned and shaped over a period of time.

So we should condition the mind for obtaining the truth. The happiness of seeking truth and experiencing it gives much more satisfaction than anything in life. In this world nobody possesses truth. No godmen, including Christ and Buddha, can claim he alone knows the truth. If they say they possess it, they are telling a blatant lie for which everything is true in this universe. The true or false for me is like the question of good or bad thing for me. I am a non dualist by evolution, my understanding of things. There is no light and dark per se as per me.. It is this mind that perceives light and dark, good and bad, true and false and all other dual things that are claimed in life. If we understand this, we can seek truth with fearless and fixated mind.

Hence there is no truth when experiencing the bliss of truth. That alone prevails. Truth as any other nature  made thing is ephemeral, cylic and ever evolving.

True Freedom

The idea of true freedom is running on my minds offlate. We celebrate our independence day on every 15th August. The other day i watched a tamil film "Paradesi" which is about "Bonded labour" in tea estates during British times. Their freedom was taken away by greedy middleman who misguides them for a sophisticated life and money. An entire village gets enticed by his sweet talk about appropriating money at less time. The hunger at their stomach made them fell to the middleman's talk. With ignorance guiding them, they are bound to suffer and that's what happened. They lead a melancholic life which moved me and made to think a lot about human quotient that played in their lives. A lascivious british general, a sadistic middlemen and his "live in the shadow" followers and bouncers make the life of these bonded labourers a hell, least to say. Yet nobody comes to their rescue. The film has an emotional ending with the "Bonded Labour" hero's wife and new born son in the quest of meeting him ends up in the "Bonded Labour" group. I started to wonder how someone's life can be affected by wicked and self motivated people.

Human life from the time immemorial has been exploited by none other than by its own race. Humans claim that they are social animals. But in any other society of animals, the effort is always in helping the fellow animals. Human beings have surpassed the powers of other species. This world in a sense is ruled by them.

The miseries we see are self inflicted on us. World of Karma theory at once takes away degrees of freedom from us. Its difficult to ascertain the miseries and its causes and hence restriction of freedom. Swami Vivekananda says these miseries inflicted are a mischievous acts of a few people to enjoy the privileges of life. A privilege is something one can flaunt to others that what he did is exclusive and he alone has the right for that. We have made many tough social systems and procedures to safeguard the rights of men and women. But time and again the human race is inflicted upon by the power and intellectual people. I still see people who fold their arms and live below their dignity to earn their living.

The idea of true freedom in our country is baffling and needs a deep thought. We are one of the most populous countries in the world. Hence the economy of demand and supply does not work in favor of us. The apathy towards fellow countrymen, the zeal over advancing interests of one's family and kins, the indifferent attitude towards society and the all selfish attitude of us makes us to devalue the people around us. The plethora of people who are ready to do any job at a very less price which otherwise a struggle in the developed nations is a case of true freedom denied to everyone. Let my country awake.

The failing assumptions

I was not like this a decade back. As a fresh passout from college, I was having loads of assumptions about knowledge, people and external world. Prima facie, knowledge was not defined by me at that time. I believed external world will be tougher than the college life i was living. College life was not tough and it was very comforting. Engineering has taught me some good and bad things. My assumptions were failing in each of these when i started my actual journey in a job. How judgements were affecting my life. How obtrusive theories i formed during my life were affecting my mental peace. i was made to think; there are good and bad people around us. Frankly i was confused that who are good and who are bad. The dagger called life was piercing my own theories and made it to bust like a needle prick on a balloon.

I am from a very modest and humble background. My father struggled to raise us. Not because he was the sole bread winner but because he started his life at zero wealth. He was motherless at his early stage. He was an angry man with mixed life principles. I spent considerable time with him. My initial thoughts were shaped by his demeanor. I have no regrets that i learnt good and bad things from him. A pertinent question to ask now. I am flummoxed by this good and bad thing question. What is good and bad? I have been ruminating on this for the last couple of years. I have not found a convincing answer. All my education failed to impress me in understanding that. That is a different story. As of now i wanted to keep  it simple. Good means a positive vibration and a socially acceptable order that brings in ready balance of the universe. My strong tamil linguistic education has taught me to understand good and bad by way of assimilating tamil literature at a very tender age. To my sense good and bad is a moral question. One cannot take a judgement about this. It requires a complete investigation of facts and information which mostly we dont have access to. There is no definite answers that has satisfied my mind about good and bad so far. So i have decided to take good and bad as those things that appeals my consciousness. This change of paradigm is one of the multiple reasons why there is a sea change in my behavioral traits.

I was yearning for more and i thought i had to struggle a lot in life in contrast to my comfortable life at college. I always believed that the external world operates in absolute fair and transparency mechanism. Elders are highly knowledgeable and operates with inexplicable integrity and morality. Atleast those who climbed to obtain laurels were hardworking and have no egotism and lives a life of dignity and honour. That is what we were lectured to in our school and colleges. I was an obedient student and completely believed marks i earned in an exam was a true reflection of my potential. It was true to an extent too. I always believed that poor people are poor because they were wretched because of lack of education and education alone will lift them out of poverty. There were few mischiefs in my college who always acted selfish and did things with them being the cynosure. I always thought that these people learn their lessons in a hard way and will come to terms during the course of life. I also saw a good number of people speaking fluent engligh and lightening thinking are many times selfish on their own ways. I was jealous at them. They could roam with best girls in the college while i was struggling to speak a line in english. I was a male chauvinist anyway and my priority is not to cheat anyone who trusted me. Somehow i was not comfortable of entertaining a girl at the cost of someone's friendship. I also saw a few girls taking advantage of the flirting boys interms of deriving pleasure of all sorts. But there were obedient girls too. I belong to a conservative society and those times i comfortably ignored why these girls are taking advantage of boys or vice versa. I am a fan of Rajinikant, a south superstar who purported an axiom that a Macho man should not run behind a girl or money and they should come to him on its own. But to my dismay none came till now and i am not married yet. I sincerely wait for that moment. I was not good in English at the time of my college joining. My father was against a fancy life and luxury. He ridiculed rich people for morally wrong. I have completely believed in that theory that those who are rich and well to do are selfish and does every wrong thing to inherit wealth. The feeling was so deep that i started to dislike the concept of wealth accumulation. I was directionless and thats why i was studying and what is the whole and sole purpose of life. My choices were driven by parental pressure, sibling rivalry and jealousy of seeing wealth among educated people. i sincerely believed that a good engineering degree will earn me a job and hence loads of money.

The other assumption that went  wrong was when i thought that in order to network with people, you must be seeing, interacting and stay in touch with them often. But the last decade has taught me that network is primarily decent stayin touch and fulfilling each other's demand that arises out of relationship. it is hard to network without motive which is against one of the tenets of mahabharatha.

My assumptions are ever falling. I started to wonder whether it is worth taking assumptions for? i have not got a convincing answer yet.